Resolutions

With the start of the New Year comes the time to turn over a new leaf and make resolutions. I make resolutions many times throughout the year and never keep them but when January 1st rolls around I think I’ll try harder after all, New Year, New Live. I’m usually proven wrong but I keep plugging along and making them anyway. I never tell anybody about them because I KNOW I will fail but since I’m trying to make positive changes in my life and be more accountable for my actions and words I’ll tell the whole world, or at least those of you that have entered my world in the past year.

1. I will try to stop procrastinating. I have a terrible time with this. I make all these plans and they sound good at night when I’m laying in bed. I even have the energy at that time to achieve some of them but use the excuse that it’s too late and I’ll do it tomorrow. When tomorrow comes I don’t have the energy and keep saying, after breakfast, after lunch, tomorrow.

2. Be more organized. This will partially be achieved with the success of #1. I’m a very unorganized person and one of my plans that I usually procrastinate on is to become more organized, starting tomorrow.

3. Start seeing more good in people and not focus so much on the negatives. This is a negative of mine and I’m positive that there are times when this is the only side of me that people see. It takes too much energy to always see the negative and become fixated on that. I think it’s the emotional thing. Only seeing negative is depressing and that negativity drains a person until there’s nothing left. I’m tired of always being drained and depressing.

4. Stop focusing too much on what other’s think of me. I don’t mean that I don’t want to care what other’s think but I don’t want to let that feeling of “I’ll embarrass myself” or “people will think I’m too old” stop me from having fun. I’ve had a long standing crush on Donny Osmond. I was always embarrassed to admit that. When we moved and I got stuff out of storage I found my life size cardboard cut out of Donny Osmond as “Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat.” At that time it came out that I like Donny Osmond and I got defensive but now I don’t care. I’ll shout it from the rooftops and I’ll post it here, I LIKE DONNY OSMOND. There, it’s done and I can’t take it back. I will also admit I took the cutout to the Chicago Theatre after one of their performances, stood outside the stage door and got it autographed.



Photo taken around 1995


Photo taken around 1998, notice the wild hair. Bad perm and windy city Chicago.